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It is really frustrating when you want to talk about something but the topic is 'off limits.' Maybe it's a bad memory, or a misunderstanding or refusal-to-listen-yet-quick-to-judge attitude, or an I'm-over-it-so-you-should-be-too attitude.I'm glad that I can count on Robert to take care of me and make me smile when I don't feel like it.

Monday

Holy cow. Today as mostly good. Robert stayed up to take Alli's to stage band this morning so I could sleep in. It was aWeSoMe. Then he slept on the couch, which was actually good because I got to sleep until I was ready to wake up. Then I finished my book- Sarah Colonna's book 'Life as I Blow It.' I aonline I felt like it, and in bed of course. Me and Robert went to the office to sign the lease paperwork; we are on a bi-monthly lease since we don't know when we will be moving. Or where. That is a whole other story, and I don't have the time or energy or focus. I started feeling really bad, tired , hungry. I didn't have energy to move, and watching Amber spin around, slowly, on the office chair was bothering me. Irritating, not quite nauseating... We were watching tv in my room, I was in bed. Robert stopped by Frank's to get pizza for dinner. Yum. I felt better after I ate. And of course, he brought me pizza in bed, with pepper flakes and a coke. And came back to check on me 2-3 times to see if I needed anything. Sweet sweet man!

Oh geez...Duh

I sit here wondering why I feel so tired, kinda almost sick. Well, I see now that it is because it is 12:19 AM. I'm usually dead to the world at this time, and would have been for AT LEAST 2 hrs. I think I'm going to the first service tomorrow and skipping SS. Alli's and Lindsey want to go to SS but not church, so I'll pick them up after church and they will walk home. Maybe if I get up early and come home early I'll be able to take a nap tomorrow afternoon. I won't hold my breath...

Feelin' Fine

Home now. Got Quiznos for dinner and I had a very tasty sandwich, which of was meat-free :) Mom picked up Alli's from track so they could go look for patterns for the dress Mom is going to make Alli's for her next band concert. Today was much better at work, as far as AHT. The first 3 days of this week were HORiBlE! It was at, like, 87% or something . But today I was well over 100% so it will be nice to Go down in a HUGE blaze of humility! Watching Ghost Whisperer with Ammi. I feel pretty good, not too tired. I feel 'normal' Like 'normal'. People feel. Or at least like I did in the past.

Do I HaVe to go to work?!

I'm here at work a teeny early...I meant to do this last night but I was really tired. I went to the clinic to renew my Rx for BP and headaches, and I was supposed to give them my paperwork from work so I can get a comfy chair and to be sure I won't have to work at night. (the chair for now and the night shift in case I need it for the future.
Work is not going so good this week. My AHT is HoRrIbLe. I think it is b/c we now have to do DD steps as well and I don't really know what I am doing in a lot of cases. It sucks b/c I had been doing so well in all my metrics for the past 12wks (which is what my performance is based on, as it would apply for any type of seniority in shif bids, raises...Hope it gets better.

Busy Day

I went to Alli's Track meet tonite after work. All but 3 of us on my team got off at 12:30 but I couldn't leave that early so I was hoping they'd offer lepc later so I could still get off early enough to get to the meet on time and maybe even stop by Wal-mart first. No such luck, so I missed her first run, and the 2nd was the one I had seen before, the mile. I missed the short ones both times, and those are what she is best at. :| Went to Country Cookin afterwards with Alli's, courtesy of Mom and Dad. It was nice just the 4 of us. And I got KK this morning...it was all good today, and too much. It won't kill me to do iy every once in a while. Everybody likes to feel stuffed sometimes, right? Well, maybe not... We got home late and I had to fill out And prepare the paperwork for my Copaxone assistance and special chair request at work so I can take the, the clinic with me tomorrow. I have to get sme of my meds re-prescribed and pick up a refill. I'm supposed to be seeing the neurologist at the beginning of May. And in June I have to recertify be ause I was almost over the income limit in March. But that was because of my awesome sales bonuses. I haven't made near that, especially since my Starz sales were being tripled at the time. It's 10:15and I need to snooze. I'll have to shower in the morning...it's nice to have my I-Pad because I can write on my blog in the dark and put it away so much easier than my computer, or should I sYmy NetBoot.

Zzzzzzzzz

I found out at work the other day that the way we get our sales bonuses is being restructured, and my extra pay is going to be reduced by probably 80, if not 90%...no joke. It's true that this was a fairly new incentive that we were getting, but it started around the same time we stopped getting rent $ from Robert's GI bill. And the amount of my bonuses equalled about the same as his rent $, which was within a couple dollars of our actual rent. Don't know how this is going to work...
It's 7:31 and I'm getting things ready for bed. I need some zzzzzz's so I can preform well at work and not have to take so many breaks- b/c I don't get pd for those even though the time off the phone is approved as part of my fmla.
Sat I stayed home from work, and in bed most of the day. Just needed more rest.
We had to change our phone # on Saturday b/c we've bee getting phone calls from some loan consoling place wanting to speak to Robert E Harding. It didn't matter how many times we said Robert is Robert M Harding and asked them not to call they still did. (I googled the # and found out is was a BofA # which concerned me b/c our accts are w/ BofA. Got that straightened out thankfully.
Allison is going to Fusion camp w/ church youth this summer and is selling spaghetti tickets to raise $. In SS 3
2 people wanted about 6-8 tickets, and Terri just donated $ for it...but to Jarromy, not Allison. Granted, they knew, from last year probably, that he was selling them but it upset me. I was excited that to have a new Avon lady in Patricia since Hazel passed away on 4/14, but I won't buy from her now b/c she ordered 4-6+ tickets dorm Jarromy, and since she isn't helping Allison I'm not going to help her. This is ENTIRELY selfish and petty and just plain wrong...but it's how I'm feeling right now. :(
7:45 now, so I really do need to sign off...