Is My Initiation Over Yet?

So it seems slowly but surely my MS symptoms are becoming increasingly noticeable and frequent. People say that they hurt, but I didn't understand. (Mom has always talked about being sore, and like a jackass, I figured it was weight related, and kind of to-bad-so-sad. Now I get it. When I'm at work I'm ok, as far as pain goes, but when I stand up to walk I ache. Like I have done some really strenuous stuff- like unloading a moving van or climbing a mountain. And when I walk upstairs to get home I have to sit down as soon as I come in because I'm sore. At first it sort of felt like my legs were experiencing muscle fatigue, like I had run a marathon. They were kind of 'jelly-like.' my hands have been shaking, more noticeably in the mornings. It can be difficult to log into all my stuff on the computer at work because my hands don't want to go where I tell them to. But on a good note, Dr Harpold increased my dosage of Amantadine, so I can take some when I'm feeling stressed or like I'm getting ready to have tremors. Dr Deverter also gave me a relaxant as well for the me for the same thing. I've been not exhausted exactly, but having no desire to move when I get home. Not like I need to sleep, but I don't want to get out of bed. And last time I saw Dr Harpold and told him about the way things have been going he just said it is stuff that happens with MS. I get that. I can see someone out in public who has some sort of disability and it's not a huge deal. I mean, it's just life, right? Well I am a hypochondriac and I didn't do well as a pregnant person and that ended. Now my body is increasingly deciding to do it's own thing and not what I want it to do. And I don't like it.